Thursday, February 25, 2010

What a day..hatred, angry and ..?

gosh..what a day today..dah la dengan dk B tu panas..dewan dalam penyelengaraan..so air cond ditutup terus..panas sangat2 dalam cuaca panas kat penang ne..Ok, tu citer pagi tadi..what surprising is the after-noon class...management class with Dr Illias..lets recall what's happened in last 2 weeks b4 CNY.. I didn't go to the class on the week b4 CNY too..because of for some reason that I called (R.A.H.S.I.A)...so..I thought I might be the one of a few student that wouldnt come to his class..but apparently..(what i knw just nw)..it is about 78% of malay students which are absence on tht day, whereas, 87% of Chinese student are also absence during the class..SO...it means that..approximately just 35 student from different races that came to his class and have test on that day..and also get full marks for their test, even though they just writing their name onto the test paper..
SO, the rest of us..dont have the 25% marks for finals...serves us rite actually...then, today..he really mad at us..especially us, malay for not attending his previous class....and so, he declare himself to hate us and don't want ever to enter this class and he's going to report this to deputy dean in the meeting. I was shocked by his statement..so..what else can I say..its my fault too..but still..as a malay's student here..I am offended by wht he said..

Pintu bilikku terbuka lagi!

ok..ini adalah entry yang untuk hari ini..seawal pagi aku dah start menulis..sebab ada satu berita panas lagi misteri yang perlu dikongsi bersama..

ceritanya bermula pada satu pagi..sekitar pukul 4 pg pada hari Jumaat yang mulia..ku sedang enak tido di atas katil..tiba-tiba, kedengaran bunyi hentaman pintu ke atas dinding..lalu ku membuka mata kerana terkejut..mataku terlopong melihat pintu bilik asrama yang terbuka luas tetapi tiada siapa di situ...perkara pertama yang terlintas difikiranku ialah kena kejutkan lia ni..

Aku yang runcing: Lia2 bangun..pintu blik terbuka!!

Lia, yang bru bngun tido dengan terkejutnya..telah memandang ke arah pintu yang terbuka itu, seraya berkata kepadaku..

Lia: Laptop?
Aku yang runcing: Laptop?..(sambil menoleh melihat laptop2 kami)..laptop ada..ok..hp pun ada..takde barang hilang pun..

Tanpa bercakap panjang lagi kami terus tutup pintu dan kunci..semalam disebabkan sangat keletihan..kitorg lupa nak kunci pintu blik sebelum tido..

Aku yang keruncingan: (terdiam..sambil mulut membaca ayat2 suci)
Lia: (sama tindakan dengan aku..tengah baca ayat2 suci)
Aku yang keruncingan:...ko rasa kenapa?
Lia: 'Dia' tumpang lalu kot..ko ada nampak apa2 x?
Aku yang keruncingan: tak aku tak nmpk apa2 pun..aku terdengar bunyi masa tgh tido...pastu terus aku buka mata celik tengok...
Lia: (sambil melihat bulu roma di lengannya)

30 minit kemudia..kami menelefon mama masing2...melaporkan apa yang berlaku..sekitar pukul 5 pg...mamaku suruh baca ayat2 kursi...dan doa..mama lia bagi ayat2 suci yang nak kena bc seblum dan selepas kuar bilik..mama dia pesan jugak..kena bagi tetamu makan bila diorg datang bilik..kenape ye??
 Tiada apa yang berlaku..kami hanya terdiam menunggu Subuh..
Pukul 6 pg..azan Subuh berkumandang..

Aku yang keruncingan: weh dah azan la..tapi jiran kita tak bangun lagi..
Lia: kita tunggi org gi toilet baru kita kuar bilik..

Kedengaran jiran kami membuka pintu bilik dan kami pun bergegas kuar gi toilet ambik air sembahyang..sambil menceritakan apa yang terjadi kepada mereka..


Itu cerita sebulan yang lalu..dan kami ingatkan ianya tidak akan berulang lagi..
NAMUN...sangkaan kami amat meleset sekali..
KEJADIAN ITU MUNCUL KEMBALI...pada malam semlm..baru sahaja berlaku..5 jam sebelum waktu entry ini...

Sedang aku dan Lia bersembang mengenai hal kerepek pisang dan ubi kentang berlada hitam...tiba2 kepala kami tertoleh sendirinya, serentak melihat ke arah pintu yang terbuka skali lagi dengan sendirinya..sedangkan..jika seseorang membuka pintu itu, bunyinya amat kedengaran sekali walaupun secara perlahan-lahan..sedangkan kami tidak mendengar apa-apa pun..dan tiada siapa yang lalu disitu..dan pintu yang berat itu hinggakan angin pun tak mampu nak tiup..boleh terbuka dengan sendirinya..Kali ini..kmi berpandangan antara satu sama lain..lau tergelak..terasa lawak seram..takut  tapi rasa nak tergelak...

Naqi kebingungan: aku tak buka pintu ok..
Lia: hahahaha...

...dan kami terus gelak dan gelak..lastly, kami ambik keputusan nak turun makan kat Ivory, kemudian baru pkir kenapa, dan mengapa terjadinya perkara sedemikian..sambil nak keluar dari bilik tu..kami telah menguji tahap ketahanan pintu bilik..dan didapati..tiada masalah..

Jadi semasa makan..kami tidak dpt mencari penyelesaian terhadap misteri2 itu...

Hidup kami dibelenggui misteriiii...(ok..sekarang aku rasa dah takut lepas tulis entry ne! )

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Brain Activation...turning ON..

I have just completed my bloody assignment..Dr Syarmila's assignment..why did I called it bloody?..BECAUSE..its numbed my brain...I have a headache while doing it..I dont know what else to be crap in the report...BUT..I do like the assignment BECAUSE, I've been doing my favorite research in that report other than architecture (of course!) and that would be psychology research...Sejak kecik lagi aku memang dah meminati bidang-bidang yang berkaitan dengan psychology ne..I'm once thought that I would end up of being in psychology field..but..jodoh itu ditangan Allah S.W.T, so, Dia sudah mentakdirkan aku untuk menyelami.(tengah tenggelam) dalam dunia architecture..Ok, enough about that...the good news that I'm going to say is..aku dah abih kedua-dua assignment WUS dan Dr Syarmila...Yahooo...Googleee ...
So, at least..aku kurang sikit merapu dalam entry ne..jam menunjukkan sudah hampir pukul 7 pm waktu Malaysia...so, I better get going..nak mandi lagi, nak turun printing kat Ivory..and dinner dengan roomate yang tersayang..so..so..soo...I'm going to get loose...lose..lost..

Numbness, dumbness, darkness

There is a secret about me that most people including all of my friends don't particularly know the real me...i mean really the real me. It's hard for me to make new friends faster like everybody else...I cannot find any suitable reason for my attitude. why did behave that way...it is not like I don't want to have friends, I do..i really do..but for some reason, people would hate me...and like usual, I don't know for what reason. Sometimes, i just want to blend into the darkness so that people won't be notice me, so that people wouldn't hate for such reason...hate....is it me who hate people or people hate me?...i don't know...maybe im just a weird gal that arent meant to be in this world..maybe i should live in a forest and befriend to animal creatures...but why?..everyday, i've been searching what is happening inside me..what's wrong here?...every single day, every second i keep thinking..even before i sleep, i'm thinking..and now..i'm still thinking..it is so hard to fulfill my desire, to search what is exactly I desire the most...sometimes, i hate to understand myself..and so i let my mind to be numb for a while..stopping all of this craze thoughts ..

      Maybe...because i'll try to be a perfect person in this world..therefore, im losing my sanity now?? could it be that way???  maybe..i lose my goal...becoming more confusing than ever in making choice what to achieve in future..im losing my tracks now...im good in giving advice for people but im a terrible psychologist for myself..my brain doesnt work for that way...niceee..im now i'm even crapping in my blog...writing some nonsense blog..with this numb brain, im writing these... 





HOW TO FIND HAPPINESS?

Friday, November 20, 2009

Meaning of freedom

Freedom??
meaning?...(sila rujuk kamus masing2) :P.....ok, tonite bruada mood nak update blog..mlm ni aku tido kt blik Zu..sebab roomateku, Lia dah blik..tengah hari tadi mak dia ambik..aku, besok pas tengah hari baru berangkat...hehehehe..Once upon a time, ada seorang putera yang sangat baik hati, bersuara lembut, baik dan comel...(kadang2 kuat cemburu, buat perangai budak2). Putera itu telah jatuh cinta dengan seorang puteri yang boleh la comelnya..hahahaha..comel ke? Mereka saling sayang menyayangi namun, si puteri itu terpaksa meninggalkan si putera yang dirinduinya itu, untuk melanjutkan pelajaran di seberang laut..si puteri itu telah menghadapi berbagai rintangan dan halangan semasa di sana..namun rintangan lagi getir selama 10/11/2009-18/11/2009 telah pun diharungi dengan gagahnya..walaupun sel otak dah tinggal separuh..Jadi, si putera ini telah mengambil keputusan untuk datang menyelamatkan si puteri ini pada tengah hari esok..Maka, si puteri ini akan hidup aman dan bahagia sehingga la 27/11/2009..Dia kena datang balik USM..

Ok, malam ni dan semalam..apa yang aku buat?:

1. tengok Full house balik sampai habis episod
2.mlm ni tgok movie..
3. ulang tgok X-man..yang ada DBSK aje..
4.tggu bila nak pagi..

Bila tgok citer korea, kebnyakkan perempuan..memang suka berangan nak hidup macam tu..dapat bf yang hencem la..apa la..ok, i admit...aku pun mcm tu gak.. :P
tp, at least aku rasa beruntung sebab dah jumpa soulmate aku..
apakah itu soulmate?

1. The other part of you
2.someone that understand you better even than yourself
3....bnyak lg la point dia..google sendiri..mls nak tulis..sbb rasa sakit belakang..menerap smbil blogging..

well, itu je yang aku nak update pun..kekeke
tak bermanfaat langsung kan?
tp suka hati la..becoz this my space..and i can do whatever i want...until then, aja2 hwaiting!

Mr Shark..saranghaeyo!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Malaysia et Paris

Fuh, I'm so tired..really i am...of what? exams. kekeke..boring wif myself...i just want to fly away from here and be in Paris..A Paris nous étudierons la même année (And in Paris, we will study together)...Concerts privés tous les étés (Private concerts every summer)...

Note: I take the lyrics from the anime's song Tokyo et Paris (Nodame cantabile)..cuz im pretty much love the anime..so much..and i learned so many things about
la musique...

So, I have decided that after I finish my first degree, I'm going to further my study in France..continue my architecture...up until I entitled to have Ar in front of my name..(ceh, beranganlah ko..exam yg senang ntah belum tentu lepas)..but anywy.."its good when you're confuse my friend" (from En Ahmad Baktiar, my former english teacher in KMPP) ape la yg aku merapu neh...sorry..are u confuse?..oh, i'm confuse too..(again..he once said that to me)...ok..enough..

sejak aku masuk matrik..sejak meninggalkan bangku kerusi sekolah menengah, sejak dah tak pkai uniform sk..sejak dh pandai ..(enough la with sejak..)...sejak dh tak ambik BM..jrg2 sekali nak menulis...dlu kalo time buat karangan..dgn bangganya memegang pen dh buat marathon menulis sehingga 2 km...kekekek..but now, look wht happen to me?..i'm becoming real lazy pig..nak tulis pun dh malas..nak taip pun mls..tp yg herannya mkn makin rajin..tido makin rajin..hahahahaha..mlm ni tgh study SHE..bkn taiwan group singer SHE tu..tp its a code for HUBUNGAN ETNIK!!!!!!..God....pls help me...mls gila2....dh lama tak membaca bnda2 tu..dh la mcm sejarah...ok2 dlu masa form 5, I love history..indeed..but because of my late teacher, Pn Jamilah...i love her teaching..strict but it's good for me...omg..hw i miss her so much...semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atasnya...bru2 ni aku dpt msg dr Bella, dia ckp Pn Hazami (my former physic's teacher..she's the best among the other physics teacher) ada barah...sedih betul..semoga beliau cepat sembuh..i love her so much...

Ok, SHE tak hbs lagi ne..saja aku berhenti sekejap (td pun dh berhenti sbnrnya..sempat lg main game the sim 3 sepetang..skrg nak rehat lg pulak) (eceh..mmg sgt mengada..) td pas maghrib..ku telah mengemas blik dgn roomateku, Lia..yela..org lain dh hbs exam..duk berehat kt rmh..kitorg dh la start exam lewat jgk..tinggal lg satu paper..Rag 121..and She 101..masa duk simpan brg dlm kotak td..terasa mcm nak pindah rumah la plak..bnyknya brg!..bru ku sedar betapa aku suka menyimpan brg yg tak pkai...suka sgt duk dlm semak..mama suka lecture aku sbb suka simpan brg2 yg dh tak pkai..FYI..aku msih simpan buku darjah 6..hahahaha..ala, mst ada org yg lg teruk dr aku..ala, bknnya apa..at least nnt ble gak tunjuk kat anak cucuk..buku keje sk nenek diorg..eceh!..td masa tgh bc SHE..sempat lg berYM dgn Lily..geng masa smkj dlu..lama tak smbng dgn dia..padahal she are listed in my ym list..cuma bila on9..ntah..kitorg tak saling cntct pun..entah la..kerokerokero...kerooooooooooo....

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Nothing..seriously..nothing..

This week, i'm really not in the mood for everything including my life..I hate to say this but, I hd become the most laziest person in my life..lol..not tht i nvr been before..but ..huish, i dunno how to describe...im too lazy to write...dont ask why I dont write much on my blog..there r a few reason why im not active in my blog:

1. Wireless connection is like hell..so damn slow...and i hate waiting for it! ( this is the most influential reason why I become so lazy to update my blog!)

2. Im busy for nothing..I weak in managing my time..and most of my time just wasted like tht..and i use the same principle for my money too..kekeke..

3. I think, my life aren't tht fancy..i mean..im having just a simple life (not Paris hilton's simple life) so, wht can i say is....nothing

4. Im not an expert in blogging. I used to have this one blog..but i seldom update it so, lastly i simply make a new one like this pink APPle ..easy solution to my problems..

5. Most people like to blogging just because they wnt to be famous...not all of them la..im saying to certain people..some are lonely..some just wnt to make new friends..and I typically falls into that part..making new friends! ( the truth is..i dunno how to make new friends!)

Now, there are a few reason why i like to blogging:

1.because im bored!
2.because im bored too!
3. because im damn bored!


Im trying to finish my study..right now, im reading RAg 161 notes..Dr Azlina's notes..its about windows..and i kinda feel sleepy and bored too so, i decided to update my blog..and my english becoming worst now, so i better take LSP 400 ASAP!..its been such a long time tht i didnt try to practice my writng..and my problematic's grammar!...goodness gracious, my eyes..no..no..dont close now, i tons of work to do!..lol..